La petite chanteuse

“Some of us think holding on makes us strong, but sometimes it is letting go.” — Herman Hesse

This quote rings so true to me today. As I’ve already posted, the past few weeks have consisted of a lot of transitions in my life, but I’m doing a lot better. I still miss home, but a lot of chats with my mom on the phone always helps. I think that many good things are ahead. Now that the job is starting to settle down a bit, which is going very well by the way, I can start to refocus on some goals of mine, including studying for the GRE and possibly looking into school…haven’t quite decided on that. I will also be relocating very soon, and will let you know the details as they come. This will give me a new aspect of New York, in a good way, just in time for summer!

The purpose of this post is to share another aspect of my life that is changing. New York is causing me to shed some skin….when I never even expected to. I am saying goodbye to a situation in my life that I have carried with me for the past 2 1/2 years. This person has had a significant impact on me in many ways, but it’s reaching a point where our relationship is now causing me more pain than joy. In order to keep moving in a positive direction, I need to say goodbye for now. Also, I always want our friendship to be a positive memory to me. The last thing I want are harsh words or bitter feelings. The best thing that anyone can do is approach this kind of situation with honesty, and a farewell. Maybe we’ll reconnect in the future…I hope so. There is also the possibility that this was never meant to be, and I have to live with that. Regardless, I must move forward and continue to live my life to the fullest, without anything holding me back.

I doubt they know that this blog even exists, which I why I’m being so candid. I will leave this post with the ending of an email that was sent to me, which I hold near and dear to my heart:

“The truth of it all is I have no real idea about how things in the universe work, even though I would like to act as though I do. I can surmise about careers all day and talk in big sweeping terms and philosophical rhetoric, but the bottom line is no one can really know. We just have to be present I suppose. All I do know is that you will be all right and I know you know that. No matter what this career holds or the next few years hold; I know you will do it with integrity and presence and that is enough for this world to be enhanced. That is enough for you to find the joy that comes from just being alive.”

I love you, and stay strong. We will talk again in the future….when things are a bit brighter for the both of us.

*To those who read and follow this blog, thank you for all of your love and support after the previous entry. I was reached out to in so many ways, and I’m very thankful for the friendships and connections I have made in my life. Thank you for allowing me to be so open in my journey, as it has taken me in many directions throughout the past year. It is because of people like you that I have the strength to strive for what we all deserve in life…love, peace, and contentment. What an amazing journey! Much love to you all!!!!!